Notes to Baby

Anniversary

Happy Anniversary to my husband. Sometimes I can’t quite believe I am so fortunate to be able to walk through this life with you. Looking forward to another year of adventure and love.

On the Day You Were Born

I love this book.

Not to be confused with, On the Night You Were Born, which is a great book as well, but it doesn’t speak to me in quite the same way.

I get choked up every time I read this book to Kaleb. Its simple pictures and verses capture so much beauty and love in world that I want him to know. Not being attached to any particular religion or faith, but still having the belief that there is divinity and order in the universe, this book, for me, expresses what my belief system is based on.

…On the eve of your birth, word of your coming passed from animal to animal…

…While you waited in darkness, tiny knees curled to chin, the Earth and her creatures with the Sun and the Moon all moved in their places, each ready to greet you on the very first moment of the very first day you arrived…

…On the day you were born a forest of tall trees collected the Sun’s light in their leaves, where is silent mystery, they made oxygen for you to breathe…

…the Earth turned, the Moon pulled, the Sun flared, and, then with a push, you slipped out of the dark quiet where suddenly you could hear…

…”Welcome to the spinning world”, the people sang, as they washed you new, tiny hands. “Welcome to the green Earth”, the people sang…

…And as they held you close they whispered into your open curving ear, “We are so glad you’ve come!”

Moving

As I mentioned we moved a little over a month ago. Generally, I find that moving is exciting. It offers a chance to explore new surroundings, purge unneeded items, and decorate a fresh, new space. I had all of these emotions about our recent move, as well as a strong sense that we were making big, positive changes for our little family’s future.

But there was also a bit of sadness that came with leaving our little home in University Place. This was where we decorated Kaleb’s nursery and brought our tiny baby home that first night. The streets that run through the neighborhood contain memories of the sunny day that I walked around with my big belly, feeling the excitement and contractions of labor. This house is where we became a family.

I know that these memories will always be with me, but it was hard to leave the place that holds so many beautiful memories and so much love. I promised myself that when Kaleb is older, I will take him back here to see his first home and where the stories from the beginning of his life took place.

Taking a moment to reflect on our time here makes me even more excited for what is to come. It is almost overwhelming to recount all the sweet and precious memories and I can only hope and imagine that much more of the same is in our future.

Months 9-11

I hate that I have gotten so behind in posting monthly updates. Although I do feel like this accurately portrays life the past few months, it has been SO busy and really flown by in the blink of an eye.

Kaleb,

you are developing so much personality these days!! You’re really beginning to show us who you are and we continue to fall in love with you more each day. Most of the time you are a very active, curious, and happy boy. You are also cultivating a stubborn streak, but I like to look at it more as an indication that you are full of determination.

Physical Development:You still army crawl like nobody’s business. You’ve shown us a couple of time that you can do the belly up crawl, but you’re not terribly interested in getting around that way. You pull yourself up on everything and you cruise around a bit, but walking still seems a little ways off and that is just fine by me. I am happy to hold on to the few things that still make you my baby. Your fine motor skills are progressing each day. You can manipulate your toys with ease, feed yourself like a pro, and get into all sorts of mischief with those sneaky little hands. 

Food:You love to feed yourself and purees are mostly a thing of the past. Your current favorite foods are carrots, peas, chicken, and all fruit. Breast feeding continues to be a favorite pastime of yours and now that we’re down to about 3 feedings a day, it feels like special time that we get to spend together rather than a constant parade of boob in our house.

Language:You like to chat and talk up a storm, but you haven’t gotten around to doing it in English yet. We’re excitedly waiting you hear some “Mama” and “Dada” used in context, but again, we know you’ll get around to it when the time is right for you. You understand some basic words, especially “no”, but that doesn’t seem to inhibit you in the least!

Current Dislikes:Diaper changes, getting dressed, not getting what you want, and the coffee grinder.

Current Likes: Baths/showers, the kitties, waking up after a good nap, eating berries, being outside, discovering new things, and playing/reading with mom and dad. 

You’re just an all around good time. I love spending our mornings together playing and cuddling. Both your Dad and I miss you when we’re away at work and look forward to the long days of summer, which will bring more time to explore the outdoors and soak up together time. It boggles my mind that almost a year has passed since I first laid eyes on you. You’re so precious to us and we couldn’t be more over joyed with the happy, loving, and sweet boy you are becoming.

All our love,

Mom and Dad

Tell Me This Isn’t Really Happening

So, long story short, I waited for two and a half hours to get my car towed. During that time the same state trooper stopped to talk twice and a gentleman missing a few teeth stopped and offered to fix my car…

Got the news today that it will cost just over $2000 to fix it. I cried pathetically on the phone to my husband and sister. Doesn’t the universe know that we just bought a business, moved, and have a first birthday around the corner?

I am trying desperately to see some sort of silver lining in all of this. Not sure if I should cry more, do some hysterical crazy laughing, or drink heavily.

Right Now…

I am coming to you live from the side of the freeway where my beloved car, Zoe, has died and left me stranded. I am about an hour from home. Sob.

Curse you Zoe, I thought we had a good thing going and you treat me this way on a Saturday?! I may not have washed or cleaned you as often as I should’ve, but I thought a little dirt, coffee, and baby drool made you feel used and loved.

Thank baby Jesus for AAA.

An Actual Conversation

Coffee Barista: How old is your son?

Me: About 10.5 months.

Coffee Barista: And you’re pregnant again?

Me: No, I’m not pregnant.

Coffee Barista: Are you sure?!

Me: Yes, I am sure. You stupid twat.

Then there was some awkward mumbling about how she assumed I was pregnant because I ordered decaf. Whatever. We both know that’s not how it went down bitch.

Just to set the record straight, I weigh less now than before I got pregnant (not that it matters) and I’ll be the first to admit my stomach muscles don’t hold a full bladder or extra bowl of ice cream like they used to. But, dammit, I grew, birthed, and sustained a human life in the last two years. This has made me seriously proud of my body.

**There is a post baby body recap coming soon that I was already planning prior to this special exchange with the coffee barista. I’ll be giving some seriously honest scoop about the bodily happenings of baby growing and birthing!

I’m Alive

Moving and all the other exciting changes in life has really been kicking my ass in the time department recently! I’ll hopefully be back with semi-regular posting in the near future.

This is my almost 11 month old boy - seriously!